This is me

I feel like, this is not my own perspective. if I touch you is like a lie, like a dream. a song which make me feel like I have to think about me, my world , my feelings. if I'm writing at this way is just because I won't show my real feeling to the world.
frustation
despair
analysis
love
desire
happiness
when join each another,It's a little bit hard to find the way to put them in the right order, but not front of me, maybe into my mind for stay tune in a world which doesn't exist for anybody, just for me. if i said it is hard because I've never had the perfect words to describe all about that. My mind is too mature, I mean, at the way that... i'm thinking in everything and sometimes i get lost in myself. That's not good, but i like it because i'm so different. Nobody knwos me yet